Inge Haupt

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The Soul’s Passage

The souls line up like a million stars,
A river of billowing light and song.
Before them a passage of hours and days,
Behind them the throng
Of heaven’s voices.
Their wing tips humming with the deep thrumb
Of creation.
For behind and below and betwixt and before
Suns, moons, stars and galaxies fall
And rise,
Spinning.
Their incandescent song praising celestial choices.

The passage forged in the bowels of the earth
With fire and brimstone and hands of despair,
Coiled and contorted on a blistering potter’s wheel,
Then finally released into netherwhere.

Born into limbo,
Its cold, hot heart begins to beat;
Its diamond sides glow and pulsate with a soft, low song;
Its spirit awakens and is ready

To beat, burst, thrust
From the belly of the earth;
Through the tearing pain of the mother’s womb,
Through the brimming tears of the father’s soul,
Through space, through time, through the highest hereafter
To the brink of nothingness,
Where stars sing, angels thrumb
And light-clad souls stand at the threshold of eternity.

She glances down at her iridescence,
Diamond-clad soul with the fate of mankind clasped to her breast.
Beside her, the thick cocoon of joy and song
Is rent.

Into the bellowing breach, darkness bubbles through.

A screaming, fearing, thrashing pierces the throng,
Forcing its way through the billowing light and song,
As warders bring her, the doomèd one.

The closer she gets to her passage of pain
The fainter her glow.
Her cloth of light and song fade
As she is torn from divinity;
Light shredded from her being
on the grater of Godless servitude.

Clothed in darkness
And forced to eat the bitter stew
That no mother’s pity, nor father’s sweat could assuage.

Waiting for

Now she is seated in her tower of silver and steel
Waiting.
Behind her, walls of glass erupt into the frigid firmament
Then stop, by some unnamed force.
By some hand, some decision, they go no further.

The black leather cocoons her, throne-like.
The smell is comforting
Like something real, alive
In this aseptic world of sterile cleaners, bleachers, filtered air.

A tread on the threshold.
He shuffles over into her domain.
The vast room looms before him;
The domed ceiling bleeding into ebony walls
Peppered with chrome artefacts.
Legacies of greater ages,
He thinks.
Discarded remnants of the dead,
She knows.

“A samurai sword,
that must have a story?”
Her glittering eyes a warning.
What do you want?
“So you’re in recruitment?”
Pause
“What does that mean?”
“I sell souls” ha ha.
The man blanched.
“I do not believe
In souls.  The concept is worthless to me.
However, I see that you have the ‘God’ gene.”
“And you were forbidden?”
Her skin flushes, draws strength from the crimson corona,
“My parents were poor,
A modern-day nephalim.”

Later she turns to witness her world.
A sea of monoliths pierce the air;
Giants, staking their claim on the nothingness.
Below, dwarves rush through the evening deluge,
Wearied shoulders, drooping heads,
The giants demanding their sacrifice.
Hearts beating out each second,
Blood flowing for the evolution of empires.

And above as the west draws Ra and Apollo in,
The ether is washed with blood reds and pinks
And the purples push shadows into corners
Where Emim and Awwim sleep.
She is surrounded by day-dreams of fear and desolation
For he did not come.

She draws the sword and paces the room.
And as the night deepens in the crystal cold emptiness
A star falls,
Crisp, bright, transitory,
Disappearing into the abyss.

Searching for Meaning

What do you do when you have no soul?
How do you create order from chaos and pain?
Do you flock to a cotoneaster in bloom
To find meaning amongst the masses?

A myriad of bright orange wings lured by the scent of salvation.
Here is sweet nourishment,
Here a fall of thrumming joy,
Butterflies and bees besieging the blossoms.

This is meaning in a single day:
A day of work, of industrious activity.
The sun catches a wing
And flings it gaily to another branch.
Another sweet chalice of nectar to imbibe,
But soulless remain,
Alone.

For after the dancing cascade in the air,
After the passion, the consummate joy;
After the night falls and white blossoms close,
A lone butterfly with ruby-red wings
That no longer beat with such blissful trust,
Must drift closer and closer
To the ages old truth,
Ashes to ashes and dust to dust.

The rich scent of loam, once more to its breast
Gathers the lonely creature,
Devoid of all breath
under wings.
Aging flesh slows and stops and is lost.
And legacies only lie in a memory
Realised in the young,
Who through chaos and pain come
To find meaning amongst the masses.

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